by Sean Croxton
Mediocrity is an interesting place to live.
It’s safe yet frustrating. Cozy yet disempowering.
It’s like a default setting for human beings who wish to do more with their lives but just can’t get — or keep — going.
There have been days when I longed for mediocrity and normalcy. You may even remember the time when I shut down my YouTube channel and social media accounts. My goodness, you have no idea how awesome that felt. No longer would I have to deal with 8 billion emails every morning. Never again would I have to wake up to find another smear video by the fruitarian dude posted on my Facebook wall. And I wouldn’t have to worry about getting caught in line at Whole Foods with a slice of chocolate cake in my basket.
I just wanted to make edu-taining health videos. I didn’t sign up for all of this other stuff!
Leading up to my meltdown, I had convinced myself that I couldn’t deal with you guys — the readers, listeners, and viewers who followed me online. But the truth of the matter is that the fear of success had taken over both my subconscious and conscious minds and had its way with me.
But as I like to say, every breakdown is followed by a breakthrough. And here we are, almost two years later, still cranking away at it. And having a ton of fun doing it.
It’s interesting that we are so very familiar with the fear of failure, but seldom do we ever consider how we fear success at the same time.